(Yes, I know it’s Tuesday)
We haven’t spoken in a while. It’s totally my fault! I’m sorry! I really missed you though! I just caught up and read all of ya’lls posts! I’m kinda mad at WordPress because they weren’t letting me like anyone’s posts! So annoying! Just know that I read them and I enjoyed them!
Well, it has been a couple weeks since I last posted anything and about a month since I’ve posted anything about the Wardrobe Architect Challenge or about any crafty things going on in my world! Sadly, I don’t have anything new to share with you as far as those things go…(Which is the main reason why I haven’t posted) but I decided that I just really want to talk with you! So I have decided to have a new reoccurring thing on the blog called
So basically how this will work is, I am going to chat about what is going on in my crafty life or my blogging life or my life life (some stories and updates and maybe some links to awesome things I’ve found on the internet and maybe answer some questions from you) and then you can chat right back with me with what is going on in your life too! And this will happen EVERY MONDAY. (or sometimes Tuesday like today) So exciting, RIGHT? And when I have a new crafty something to show you, then I will have an additional post sometime during the week!
So, for the first week of kicking off CHATTY MONDAYS (on Tuesday), I am going to get a little serious…and I hope not too sad. I just really need to talk about some things…
I feel BLAH. I feel like I’m not doing enough. Not taking care of the house enough, not working enough, not seeing my family enough, not blogging enough, not sewing enough…
My house is always a mess, i haven’t sewn anything that turns out well for A LONG TIME, I haven’t seen my nephews in forever and I feel like I barely work (which I can’t control since my clients book when they want to book). And I did TERRIBLE at doing the Wardrobe Architect challenge tasks for February.I just feel like there is so much in my life I am sucking at right now.
But I think the thing that is making me feel the most BLAH is that my grandma passed away a week and a half ago. And now I can’t help but think about all the memories I have had with her, the things she’s said and the things she’s given me… And it’s bittersweet because I know she is better now because her body, that had so many things wrong with it, isn’t holding her back and isn’t making her feel pain everyday.
But I miss her.
I don’t really know how to deal, because she is the first person that’s been close to me to pass away. I just don’t know what to do…
She was an English teacher, and she had a fierce love for reading! She gave me my first Harry Potter book on my 9th birthday, which fueled my love of reading and Harry Potter. She used to sew and she made quite a few dresses for herself (including her wedding dress!) and she made clothing for my mom and her brothers. She always thought it was so great, the things I would make! She would always tell me how much she bragged about me and how proud she was of me! She always supported me and showed me love. She would “oooo” and “ahhh” at the things I would make, She went to some of my choir concerts… She was just such a great person. She IS a great person. She’s made so many people feel like family and has poured her love on them…like my husband! She loves Brodie so much.
She told me once before that I was her favorite, haha! and she told me she would deny it if I ever told anyone! Well…she’s my favorite too. and I won’t deny it.
It’s really not fair. She was still really young. I feel so bad for my grandpa. I can’t even imagine… They were the cutest together! They have been married for almost 50 years and they still treated each other like they were newly in love. Always caring, always patient, always lovey-dovey… I want my marriage to be like that.
I hope I haven’t been too sad…I just miss her.
I hope you are doing well and I hope that you know that if you’re going through any hard times, I’m here for you. We can be there for each other.