You know how you think life is going to go a certain way
and then BAM….life’s really not the same anymore.
About 6 months ago, I started feeling severely depressed. Not just a random bad day here and there, like every single day, no motivation, crying for no reason, not wanting to do anything. No cleaning, not really eating, my head non-stop telling me I would never do anything worthwhile and that I’m so stupid, can’t do anything right.
After a month of this I decided that I needed to go to my doctor, because feeling like that everyday SUCKS. I wanted to get my hormones checked ust in cause, because hormone imbalances can affect mood.
A month later, with the results from my first round of blood work, my primary care doctor tells me that the only thing out of the ordinary is that I’m extremely low in progesterone, in the menopausal range. (YIKES)
My doctor recommended that I go to my OBGYN since they deal more with female hormones.
Another month later, I’m sitting at my OBGYN’s office waiting to see the hormone specialist that works there. I show him my current blood work and he confirms, yes I’m low in progesterone and he also says that my thyroid levels look off and I’m really low in vitamin D.
I get more blood work done, other tests and get a couple fancy new prescriptions and a supplement that should be making me feel “less tired, less crabby, less bloated”.
At this point i should tell you that I hadn’t really been having a period. My whole life I’ve been pretty irregular and trying different birth controls to regulate it just made me have other really bad symptoms, like daily migraines and depression! So fun…So a year ago I stopped taking any kind of pill because it just wasn’t worth the side effects. Ever since I stopped taking the pill I haven’t had a regular period.
I come back a couple weeks later to go over the last round of blood work.
“Just as I’ve suspected, your testosterone levels are high, insulin is high, progesterone’s low, no period…this is all do to your Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome.”
(I have what? what is that?)
He reassured me that everything would be fine and that my medicines (now i have another one) and cutting out artificial sugar would help regulate my insulin and hormones.
After some googling of what Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) even is…
I found out that it can be a lot of different things and that there are many side affects and long term problems that can occur. So fun…So here’s what I’ve pieced together…
There are many factors that can cause PCOS but mine starts from insulin resistance. My body produces too much insulin and doesn’t use it properly.
Having too much insulin in my body makes it create more androgens (male hormones/high testosterone).
Because my body is is high in testosterone, it affects my ability to have a period.
When your body has a period, it releases the hormone progesterone.
Because I don’t create progesterone…I don’t have the proper hormones/nutrients to mature an egg. I don’t ovulate.
Which means what exactly?…
That’s the big one…
I can also get any and all of these symptoms as well:
- Hirsutism – extra hair growing in extra fun/noticeable places.
- Cysts on the ovaries (painful, i’ve heard BTW).
- Acne, oily skin, or dandruff
- Weight gain or obesity, usually with extra weight around the waist
- Male-pattern baldness or thinning hair (not my hair!!)
- Patches of skin on the neck, arms, breasts, or thighs that are thick and dark brown or black
- Skin tags
- Pelvic pain
- Sleep apnea
- Anxiety or depression (not fun at all.)
But the biggest one, the one I cried for weeks about…
I am going to write part 2 next week. I felt like I needed to end here.
I’m sorry that it sounds so depressing…but this is what I went through.
I’m not looking for people to feel bad for me, just support and uplift me.